I can’t believe that it’s the last day of 2015. I received an email yesterday that told me my most read blog posts for this year. I couldn’t help but notice what my top 3 posts had in common. These were the posts that I didn’t want to write. These were the posts that made me throw down my pride, stomp on it, and then hit the publish button. I didn’t want the world to know that I don’t have it all together. I didn’t want them to know that I’m a mess.
So why were these 3 posts the most read this year? I think people find transparency to be a breath of fresh air. Moms are tired of feeling like they can’t measure up to the moms who appear to have it all together. Perhaps moms look at me and they breathe a sigh of relief because their life looks a lot like mine. Maybe they are tired of pretense and are looking for authentic. And that’s exactly what God called me to be in 2015. He asked me to be honest about what our life really looks like. He wanted me to stop pretending that I have it all together. It’s not been an easy road to travel but I’m thankful that God called me to take this journey. And I’m thankful for each of you who’ve traveled with me in 2015 by reading my posts. You’re all amazing and beautiful people!
Now for the top 3 posts for 2015:
#3 I Can’t Do This Anymore. This post was about a moment when I hit rock bottom. It was a moment when I asked God if He was still there because He felt a million miles away. In that deep, dark moment I asked if He could do something to make our life better. He answered by sending 2 special ladies to help us with Mikayla and Hope.
#2 I Want A Corn Dog. This post was about the day I had a complete meltdown at a church function. I definitely didn’t want to write this one because I didn’t want people to know how messed up my world is. But I learned that when you Let People Into Your Messed Up World they want to help you.
#1 To The Lady Who Shook Her Head. I usually spend days or weeks writing a post before I publish it. This one just spilled out of me one morning and I published it immediately. Many people loved it and many people hated it. There were moments when I wished I’d never written it. The most valuable lesson I learned this year is that not everyone is going to like me or celebrate what I have to say. And that’s ok. If my words touch even one heart then it’s worth every moment I spend typing my story.
See you all in 2016!