I woke up with a heavy heart and tears in my eyes. Today was the day we would walk into Easter Seals for the last time. I was struggling with having to say goodbye to the therapists who’ve been in our lives for the last 2 years. They aren’t just the girls therapists. They have become our friends. Am I going to be able to hold it together? or am I going to be a blubbering mess?
As I was signing in the receptionist asked me when our last day would be. I told her today was our last day. She said “Oh…..that makes me want to cry!”. She talked about how sweet our girls are and how much she would miss seeing us. Tears started forming in the corners of my eyes. I haven’t made it out of the reception area and I’m already crying. This is not going to be easy.
The girls OT’s came and got them. I tried to sit and read a book but I just couldn’t concentrate. Mikayla and Hope have always loved the therapy gym. I went a few minutes early to pick them up so I could get some pictures. They had a wonderful last day of OT and they were grinning from ear to ear. It was time for them to get their prize and say goodbye. The girls did what they do every week. They hugged Lisa and Jill and told them that they love them. And I watched with tears in my eyes.
We went to the parent’s lounge to wait for their speech therapists to come and get them. Susan came and got Mikayla. A few minutes later Kayla came for Hope. I asked Kayla if I could take a picture of her and Hope. She loved the idea and she asked me to email the pictures to her. Hope was acting a little goofy which made for some really cute pictures. I snapped the pictures and quickly left so they could start their session.
I could tell that a flood of tears was coming so I went straight to the restroom. I knew the hardest goodbyes were still coming. I honestly didn’t know how I was going to get through it. I’ve spent a lot of time talking to Susan and Kayla about the girls over the last 2 years. They’ve always been positive and encouraging. Even on the days when the girls had an off day they’ve been encouraging and loving.
I was standing out in the hallway waiting for Susan to bring Mikayla back to me. Brett got back from running some errands. I was crying and I told him “I don’t think I can do this”. Then Susan opened the door and out popped Mikayla. She was as happy as could be. They’d played Ned’s Head which is one of her favorite games. I got a quick picture of Susan and Mikayla.
Kayla and Hope joined us. We started talking and I thanked Susan and Kayla for all they’ve done for Mikayla and Hope. I told them that 2 years ago I prayed that each of our girls would get the speech therapist who was perfect for her. God certainly answered my prayer. Kayla was perfect for Hope and Susan was perfect for Mikayla. Susan hugged me and I started crying. Mikayla walked up to me with a worried look on her face. And she leaned up against me because she knew I was having a hard time saying goodbye. The girls said goodbye to Susan and Kayla, told them they love them, and then Brett took them to the van.
I spent a few more moments talking to Kayla. She said some things that are going to help me get through this chapter of our life. We hugged, said goodbye, and I walked down the hallway one final time. As I walked out the front door for the last time I left a piece of my heart inside of Easter Seals. I will always be thankful for Kayla, Susan, Jill, and Lisa and every moment that they spent with our girls.
I thought about this picture several times throughout the day. I feel like the little girl in this picture. I don’t want to give up Easter Seals and the amazing therapists our girls have had for the last 2 years. But God has asked us to let go of what’s familiar and comfortable and He wants us to trust Him. We trust that He has something amazing waiting for our girls that we just can’t see yet.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.