My dentist told me that I had to have a root canal and get a crown. What? Are you kidding me? I don’t think I want that. But apparently it was the only way I was going to get rid of the infection in my gum. So with fear and trembling I made the appointment. The night before the procedure I got extremely anxious. The fear of the unknown always has a way of making me a little crazy. I gave myself a pep talk. “Tricia, get a grip. You’ve had 3 c-sections and you didn’t think they were a big deal. Surely you can live through a root canal.”
It took 2 visits to complete the root canal. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be but I certainly hope I never have another one. This week I had my appointment to get my temporary crown. I woke up dreading another 2 hours in the dentist’s chair. As I opened the door to the office I sighed, rolled my eyes, and thought “Here we go again.”
They numbed me. They did an impression. They took an x-ray. They filed away my tooth. As pieces of my tooth were flying through the air I was thinking about my older sister. She’s 45 years old and the girl doesn’t even have a single cavity in her sweet mouth. Bless her heart. Why do I have to go through this? Why can’t I be more like her? Oh, to live a cavity free, root canal free, and crown free life. Must be nice. The temporary crown was finally in place. I was relieved to be able to shut my mouth and get out of that chair. Sweet freedom.
When I was having my root canal it seemed like a really big deal. I didn’t enjoy one single minute of it. But in the grand scheme of life it’s a pretty small thing. Isn’t that how a lot of situations are in life? When you’re in the middle of the situation it seems huge. But one day you look back and you realize that it was just a stepping stone to help you get to the other side. A root canal and a crown are stepping stones to help me keep my smile. My smile won’t have a big gap in it where a tooth used to be. That’s a feature that I’m kinda glad to keep.
Tomorrow we begin a new journey for Mikayla and Hope. I have a meeting at the school to find out what education options we have available for them. I’m looking forward to it about as much as I looked forward to my root canal. I’m not a fan of IEP meetings. What parent is, right? They make my stomach feel queasy and I don’t enjoy hearing about how far behind our girls are. But the IEP is an important part of the process. I couldn’t get a crown without first having a root canal. And we can’t go forward with the girls education without first writing an IEP. The process will most likely be difficult and I doubt I will enjoy it. But it’s a stepping stone to greater things for our girls. And these two gals are certainly worth it.