Stepping Stones To Greater Things

My dentist told me that I had to have a root canal and get a crown.  What?  Are you kidding me?  I don’t think I want that.  But apparently it was the only way I was going to get rid of the infection in my gum.  So with fear and trembling I made the appointment.  The night before the procedure I got extremely anxious.  The fear of the unknown always has a way of making me a little crazy.  I gave myself a pep talk.  “Tricia, get a grip.  You’ve had 3 c-sections and you didn’t think they were a big deal.  Surely you can live through a root canal.”

It took 2 visits to complete the root canal.  It wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be but I certainly hope I never have another one.  This week I had my appointment to get my temporary crown.  I woke up dreading another 2 hours in the dentist’s chair.  As I opened the door to the office I sighed, rolled my eyes, and thought “Here we go again.”

They numbed me.  They did an impression.  They took an x-ray.   They filed away my tooth.   As pieces of my tooth were flying through the air I was thinking about my older sister.  She’s 45 years old and the girl doesn’t even have a single cavity in her sweet mouth.  Bless her heart.  Why do I have to go through this?  Why can’t I be more like her?  Oh, to live a cavity free, root canal free, and crown free life.  Must be nice.  The temporary crown was finally in place.  I was relieved to be able to shut my mouth and get out of that chair.  Sweet freedom.

When I was having my root canal it seemed like a really big deal.  I didn’t enjoy one single minute of it.   But in the grand scheme of life it’s a pretty small thing.  Isn’t that how a lot of situations are in life? When you’re in the middle of the situation it seems huge.  But one day you look back and you realize that it was just a stepping stone to help you get to the other side.  A root canal and a crown are stepping stones to help me keep my smile.  My smile won’t have a big gap in it where a tooth used to be.  That’s a feature that I’m kinda glad to keep.

Tomorrow we begin a new journey for Mikayla and Hope. I have a meeting at the school to find out what education options we have available for them.  I’m looking forward to it about as much as I looked forward to my root canal.   I’m not a fan of IEP meetings.  What parent is, right?  They make my stomach feel queasy and I don’t enjoy hearing about how far behind our girls are.   But the IEP is an important part of the process.  I couldn’t get a crown without first having a root canal.  And we can’t go forward with the girls education without first writing an IEP.  The process will most likely be difficult and I doubt I will enjoy it.  But it’s a stepping stone to greater things for our girls.  And these two gals are certainly worth it.






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